2 hours ago
Sunday, April 21, 2013
After I got off the phone with her I remember standing and looking myself in the mirror trying to remember this moment as I wondered, "Do I look like a mom?"
Then I was off to the show where I had to wait forever for Ben to have a moment alone so I helped blow up balloons feeling like I was going to jump out of my skin. When I finally had him to myself I couldn't get the words out at first but once I did, I hope the look of shock that I remember on his face never leaves my memory.
Then I spent the rest of the night pretending to drink in a room filled with all of our favorite people. I was dying to tell but too afraid that is was so early. That was my first night of realizing how loud and close everyone talks when they've had a few drinks and you've had ZERO.
That night I woke up at 4 a.m. to take another test just to be sure and there the double lines were again. I remember feeling so terrified and excited. Then I settled into my first day of caffeine withdrawal which was hell and the internet searches about pregnancy began.
Polly has made me realize how quickly time passes without us realizing it because she is a rapidly changing little reminder that time is flying everyday. The first time saw her I was so amazed by all of the little details of her that had formed in me those 40 weeks. I'm still amazed. Now all of a sudden we are nerdy parents and she already looks embarrassed to be with us. PARENTS!