Saturday, September 26, 2015

2.75 Years Old

This month was a blur.  Daycare sickness struck twice and the last one knocked me out.  I foolishly tried to work through it and finally had to throw in the towel.  Here are a few highlights through the fog:

  • We've started venturing out of the house without pull-ups on.  She's successfully marked some territory yesterday alone including a busy furniture store floor.  The shop clerk thanked us for telling him in a way that let me know that this wasn't the first time but most people seem to dash.  Note to self.  
  • While driving in the car the band Hole came on the radio and Polly asked, "why is she sad".  I gave her the general, "I don't know" answer.  I figured trying to explain Courtney Love to a 2.5 year old would be too difficult.  I asked Polly if she wanted me to turn on a different song and she said, "no, I like it."  
  • My mom and stepfather came to visit and I love seeing my mom play with my little girl.  It's sort of magical.  
  • Riding in the car I hear a sad tiny voice say, "why is the sky grey, I want it to be blue." Welcome to most days in Cincinnati kid.  
  • We may be known to frequent Skyline on Wednesdays.  This past Wednesday we had different plans but when I picked her up from school she said, "I want Skyline!" Figuring a 2.5 year old doesn't know it's Skyline Wednesday I asked her how she knew it was Wednesday and she said to me seriously, "I know it's Wednesday because I want to go to Skyline."  That is an interesting way to tell the days of the weeks but it seems to be working for her.  I'll stick with my iPhone calendar.  
  • The smile on her face above is right after I asked her if she wanted some juice.  She is in for a serious shock when she realizes that her "juice" is 1/4 juice and 3/4water.  We also need to at some point tell her that a glass of water at a restaurant with two lemons squeezed into it isn't lemonade.  I sure will miss it when making shit up doesn't work anymore.  
  • It's terrifying to love someone this much.  I feel lucky everyday even when the days are hard and long.   

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Two and Some Change

This kids is just fun to hang out with and growing so so fast.

  • She talks about monsters but then reassures us that they aren't real.  "Don't worry mom, monsters aren't real."  
  • She says creepy things. On the way to drop her off at day care one day she sadly said, "I'm going to give you a hug and a kiss and I'm never going to see you again." Well doesn't that just start your day off terrible.  I assured her that I would see her later but she repeated her statement TEN TIMES.  So I drove very slowly to and from work that day and watched my back just in case my kid could see the future.  I made it and she did indeed see me again.  
  • These are lyrics we thinks she either made up or they are listening to toddler punk rock music at day care.  We are cool with both options.  First she counts to three and begins pounding on her drums, "watch out for me, watch out for me, 'cause I'm a kid!"  Consider yourself warned.  
  • We took Polly to see her first movie Shaun the Sheep.  She sat through the entire thing and ate popcorn like a pro.  On the way home she was still munching on some popcorn and we heard a kissing sound so we asked what she was doing back there and she said, "I'm giving the popcorn a kiss because it's going bye bye in my mouth."  That is my kid for sure.  I love popcorn so much.  In fact I nearly ate an entire large popcorn myself which caused me to have to take Tums, get Ben to rub my back and then sleep sitting up straight for a while.  
  • She still loves her bear.  He helps her brush her teeth, she shares her food with him and he even uses the potty when she does. It's cute and hilarious but that thing is getting disgusting.  

Sunday, July 26, 2015

2.5 +

This girl is fun.  She's such a person now.  She asks me what I want to do today, she shares her food with me, and randomly tells me she loves me.  She also screams at me, saying "NO TICKLING THAT'S NOT NICE" as if I'm the worst human ever, but then turns around and asks to be tickled.  It's like having a tiny, tiny teenager that you can carry around.  It's hilarious even when it feels awful and hard.  Here are some highlights from this month:

  • She's getting the hang of potty training except for those moments when you aren't paying attention.  I think she just wants to keep us on our toes.  I can just see her thinking, "ha, they think they really have this down.  I'll show them!"  
  • She always thinks the lower case letter m looks like it's sad.  This concept makes my insides scream with cute, gross feelings of love and fascination.  Her little mind thinks the letter looks sad!!!  
  • Here's a random thought she recently said aloud to me as if we were in an disagreement that I wasn't aware of.  After a long period of silence she says shaking her head, "I don't live up in the trees.  I'm not a squirrel, I'm Polly."  
  • Polly points to Stephanie's hair, our awesome babysitter and friend, "Is that your hair?"  
  • She peed on our new couch, not the cushion, the side of the couch.  How does that even happen!?!?  
  • She started daycare this month and has adjusted so well.  She didn't even look back on the first day.  She was just excited to meet new friends and play with new toys.  She likes to introduce me to her friends and it's hilarious.  On the second day we opened the door and she announced to the room, "I came back!"  There is nothing better than starting the day dropping her off and being surrounded by cute little kids who are so excited to see both of us.  
  • She makes up lots of songs.  

Saturday, June 27, 2015


What a day.  Today the Supreme Court ruled that it is legal for all Americans, no matter their gender or sexual orientation, to marry people that they love.  Driving to work this morning I was listening to NPR before the decision and thinking about the funerals in Charleston and my little girl Polly growing up in this confusing world.  I have to say I was feeling pretty down about all of it.  It made me want to listen to Why? performed by Nina Simone.  I've had her album, 'Nuff Said! for years and this song has always struck me but the words were particularly sharp today in light of the recent events.  It's painful that we have come so far but we are still struggling to love one another, be patient, empathetic, and tolerant of our differences in order to see all of our similarities.  THEN, I'm standing in line waiting for a sandwich and the news of the Supreme Court decision reached me and I couldn't help but cry thinking of so many friends and family members who maybe never thought this day would come.  There is hope!  If we keep pushing things can change!  My funny, curious little daughter will never know a time when marriage wasn't simply for people who LOVE.  We still have a lot of work to do but at least there is hope.

As if this weren't enough, here are a few highlights from this month:

  • Someone please tell me the secret to potty training.  Please.  PLEASE!
  • Being a working mom is hard.  Okay, being a mom is hard but this week Ben had a canceled flight so I had to work while trying to wrangle a 2 year old for part of the day on Wednesday.  Just when I thought I had it mastered, I was on a conference call when I heard her fall (she was supposed to be watching TV and eating her snack).  I go into the other room with my line muted only to find that she had slipped in her own pee.  She proceeded to skate around in it like she was Nancy Kerrigan as I tried to wrap up the conversation as I tried to contain the splashing.  I'm lucky to have an understanding boss and a enough sense to realize that while this was frustrating, it was also hilarious.  
  • Random funny things that she has said.
    • "Your arms look like hand sticks."  I love the way she breaks down the world around her.  My arms simply look like sticks that hold my hands.  
    • While watching a show she exclaims, "look mommy, she has a vacuum just like daddy!" I feel proud that she didn't say mommy then immediately felt defensive.  I use it too! 
    • She likes to yell, "what's going on here?!"  
  • A conversation with Polly:
    • Polly: Oh no! (touching her forehead with both hands looking worried)
    • Me: What's wrong?!
    • Polly: I lost my eyebrows! (I could tell she's worried...mostly because of her eyebrows)
    • Me, moving her hands down to her eyebrows:  No, they are right there.
    • Polly:  Oh, there they are.  (goes on with her business)  
  • Some days when she wakes up I'm convinced she's taller and says more words than she did the day before.  
  • Sometimes I think she knows she's growing up too fast and she asks me to hold her like a little  baby.  I'm always happy to as I cling onto the tiny little bits of baby that are still left.  
  • She loves to paint and make music and that all makes me very happy.  

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Almost 2.5

May was a really long month.  I traveled, Ben traveled and this girl grew and changed a ton at a speed that has me begging for time to slow down.  SLOW DOWN!  Look at her!  Her hair in little pigtails, she's wearing training pants and she went most of yesterday and today using the potty.  WHAT IS HAPPENING?!? Here are a few highlights from this month.

  • She picked out the sandals that she's wearing in the picture above.  She wanted the ones with sprinkles.  
  • She FINALLY let me put her hair in pigtails.  I know I've already mentioned this above but it's a pretty big deal.  She loved to rip them out as soon as I got them in.  She refused hair bows or any kind hair restraint.  I sort of loved her rebellion and crazy hair but she looks so big and cute with her pigtails!  They also keep her from getting mad at the wind.  
  • She thinks it's funny to wipe off my kisses!  
  • I went to the grocery store the other day for beer and training pants.  They really should be sold together as a package deal.  Having a ticking pee time bomb on your hands is really stressful.  Why oh why did we buy a new couch with a toddler in the house?  
  • She can finally talk in a robot voice.  That's not on the doctor checklist of developmental milestones but it really should be.  Somehow she does a much better job of brushing her teeth when I talk in a robot voice.  
  • She likes for me to draw her pictures of bowls of mac & cheese.  That's normal right?  
  • Random things she's said this month:
    • "Every rocket needs an astronaut."  I'm sure this is from a TV show but it still sounded hilarious coming out of the mouth of a two year old.
    • While watching a movie about whales..."I used to be a whale." This one creeped me out for some reason and I'm pretty sure I would have remembered that.  
    • "I have hair like a lion, ROAR!"  It's pretty true really.  
  • Miss Beth, Polly's awesome sitter since she was three months old, is moving on to new work so Polly's last day there is Friday.  It makes me so sad but I know this is the first of many changes for Polly.  She will miss her best buddy Geoffrey though and I will miss all of the stories of their field trips and all of her outside time.  We have been very lucky to have such a loving situation for her for so long.  
  • I worry too much about everything.  You name it, I've worried about it.  I'm saying this to remind all of the awesome mamas out there to give yourself a break.  You're probably doing a great job, particularly if you are worrying about doing a great job.  At least that's what I tell myself.  
  • Polly has a really awesome dad.  

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Not So Terrible Twos

The only way we could get her to sit still was the rainbow slinky.  This month has felt LONG and it seems like Polly has grown a yard since the last update.  Some of her 2T pants are starting to turn into capri pants just in time for the weather to turn warm.  I am fall down tired tonight after a crazy month that culminated with a rainy yet successful Crafty Supermarket on Saturday.  I am definitely feeling like my weekend needs a weekend.  Here are some updates from this month.

  • We are starting to understand where the term "terrible twos" got it's name.  There are many versions of this conversation that happen in our house on a daily basis.
    • Me: Polly it's time to use the potty, do you want me to put the seat up for you?
    • Polly (in a sad voice):  Yes.
    • Me: Okay, are you sure?
    • Polly (in an even sadder voice): Yes.
    • Me (putting the seat on):  Here you go.
    • Polly(crying and stomping up and down): NO!
    • Me: what's wrong?
    • Polly: I WANTED TO DO IT!!!!
  • What they don't say about this age though is how awesome it can be.  It really has to be or people all over the world would only have one kid.  They would NEVER have a two year old and then think, let's do that again if it weren't also awesome at the same time.  Yesterday she held my face in her hand and told me she loved me in a most genuine sweet way that I thought my heart and brain would explode. 
  • I often see her taking care of her dolls or stuffed animals in the most gentle way and I can hear her saying sweet little things to them that I say to her, "I won't let you fall", "do you want to lay your head on my shoulder" and it makes me melt.  
  • She sometimes starts sentences with the word "actually" and I find myself realizing that I'm closer to having a 15 year old than I am to being a 15 year old myself.  
  • We recently gave her this What a Wonderful World book. It's become a nightly favorite.  I usually sing it to her despite my terrible voice and she has started to sing along too.  This song is one of those songs that I've heard so many times that I don't really hear it but reading this book to her each night, I get a little lump in my throat every time.  There is something about these lines that summarize all of the hopes that I have for her.  
I hear babies cryin'. I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know 
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Three years

Today marks three years since we found out that a tiny human was coming to live with us for a while.  I've read a lot of mommy blogs about this change and I don't find myself to be a part of the camp that feels like I found out who I was when I became a mom or that I found myself when I became a mom.  I also can't really say that I even know what those two statements really mean to be honest.  I do think that having a daughter has made me less afraid to share my feelings and be more vulnerable to love and affection of others.  It's made me want to be a stronger woman and a good role model for her.  It's made me want to try even more things that are hard or that I'm afraid of because I want her to do the same.  It's made me value my relationships more for reasons that I don't really understand yet.  Maybe it's that I see my own mortality in her youth.  Tonight I was driving home from an event, thinking about what a difference three years can make and this song struck me a bit.  She made me love more.