Wednesday, November 26, 2014

23 Months

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I couldn't be more thankful for getting to spend this week away from work, hanging out with this kid.  Here are a few thoughts about this month:

  • This month she really is just a kid.  There is hardly any baby left in there.  The last two days have been mommy/daughter days and we are starting to have straight up conversations.
  • She loves accomplishing something and yelling, "I DID IT!".
  • She has her way of doing things.  In the morning she hates it when one of us is still in bed after the other gets her out of her bed.  She refuses to come into our bedroom, she wants to get down to playing immediately.  No time for laziness.  
  • I'm proud of how independent she is.  I've had to go out of town twice over the last two months for work and she's done great!  Technology bridges the gap and it helps that she has a great dad and babysitter that she loves.  
  • Being a passionate working mom with other interests outside of work is really hard.  I constantly feel guilty either about work, projects or Polly.  In the new year, I'm going to really focus on giving myself a break.  Not that I'll slack in any of my priorities but I need to be okay with things just being okay sometimes.  I want things to be perfect all too often.  
  • I laugh inside when Polly says things to strangers like, "don't touch me" or "walk away".  I just love seeing her assert herself and her boundaries.  I hope she never loses that but perhaps is a little more polite unless the situation calls for yelling.  

Sunday, October 26, 2014

22 Months

What a big kid!  She might just look like me in this pic.  This month flew by but I believe I think, say and feel that every month.  We are all settled into our new house at this point save a few projects here and there.  Here are a few highlights in Polly's world.

  • She loves to be outside.  Everyday as we pull into the drive way she says, "I don't want to go in the house. "  Yes, she says all of those words!!!  
  • She says "that's nice" after she asks you something and you give her an answer.  It hilarious and slightly patronizing.  
  • When Ben sings around the house, Polly asks him to stop yelling.  
  • She was potty trained for about a day and then decided that was a waste of time.  I've never been so excited about a bowel movement in my life as that first time she used the potty.  It made me realize how ridiculous parents really are and I'm one of them.  
  • I learned this month that I need to take a little more time for myself.  That's a really hard thing to do because I feel like I hardly see her between work and sleep so I hate taking time away to see friends or just to be myself.  I'm can't help but feel that I'm just an okay mom, I'm just an okay wife, I'm just an okay employee, and I'm sort of a terrible friend.  I know most of that is ridiculous but it's something that floats around in my mind while I'm trying to be so many things at once. I need to learn to relax.  

Friday, September 26, 2014

21 Months

This is the first monthly photo in our new house.  This last month flew by faster than any month I can remember but it also feels like it lasted FOREVER.  I thought moving would be easy because I've moved a dozen times in my life but I really underestimated what it would be like to move 9 years worth of furniture, care for a toddler, work, and prepare our old house for new owners.  The good news is that we survived and I will never move again unless someone else packs, moves, cleans and unpacks.  I think I'm the one that misses our old house the most but we are quickly building new memories here.  Here are some highlights:
  • Polly LOVES to be outside in our new yard.  She wants to pick up acorns, swing in her tree swing, walk and point out every squirrel.  There are acorns all over our house inside and out.  I found myself actually holding her upside down the other day outside to shake all of the acorns out of her overall pockets.  It was safe and she loved it.
  • She is saying full sentences and thoughts.  She knows everything we say which means I'm trying to tone down some of my favorite cuss words.  We'll see how that goes.  
  • She tells everything that she loves it including the cats aka titty tat, her bear, her blanket and her necklace but the other night I was hugging her before bed and I said, "I love you Polly" and she responded with, "I love you blanket."  Maybe she will move to loving humans soon.  
  • She told me to go away this morning.  She'll make a hilarious teenager some day.  
  • She blesses herself when she sneezes.  
  • We went 20 whole months with no pooping in the bath tub.  That winning streak is over.  
  • She is obsessed with pizza and ice cream.  She is our daughter for sure.  
Ben and I also celebrated our 3 year anniversary (11 years including dating) this week and we took our now annual photo under our tree.  Polly was just as hard to photograph as she was last year but at least she always keeps us laughing.  Happy anniversary to us!  

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

20 Months

Look at that little kid!  She's growing too fast and getting too smart.  It's absolutely crazy.  This picture is the last picture that we will take on her monthly day in this house.  No more green wall, no more corner.  SO the latest news in our house is that we put our house on the market less than a month ago and it sold in 5 days.  This time next month we will no longer be in this house, the house where we've lived for 9 years.  I stood on this front porch in my wedding dress waiting for my soon to be husband to pick me up. This is where I found out that I was pregnant and where we cuddled a new born baby in the cold winter months.  In this house she learned to walk and talk and defy us.  It makes me so sad that she will not remember this place because this is where I became her mom; where over 9 years I really became myself.  We've made so many friends who live right here.  BUT, I feel excited that she will probably grow up in our next house and that no matter where we are, our little family is really home.  With all of these changes this last month has been interesting for sure.  Here are some highlights.

  • The week that our house went on the market we had over a dozen showings and then Polly came down with hand, foot and mouth.  That was awesome.  High fever, keeping a house perfectly clean with a sick baby and two cats is enough to make you crazy.  I would have given the house away at the end of the week if we hadn't gotten a few offers.
  • Her language continues to grow each day but sometimes she gets confused about what words mean.  Right now when she hits her own head or hurts herself she rubs the sore spot and looks at me and says in the tiniest sad voice, "sorry."  It's so damn cute.
  • I'm not sure many people would describe me as patient but I am very proud of myself each morning as I let her navigate 12 concrete stairs that lead to the car from our house because she refuses to let me carry her.  She has to point out every ant, butterfly and flower on the way and I just make myself slow down and watch her explore.  That usually lasts until about step 6 and then I lose my patience and pick her up and fly her to the car.  I'm still growing.   
  • Just tonight we had another pee/slip and slide incident in her bedroom right before bath time.  Of course the mop and everything was at the new house along with my husbands extra set of hands.  Fun times.  I just heard her from the other room say, "water!" and I knew what had happened.  
  • She's obsessed with dandelions.  Now that they are starting to fade, she can still spot the only dandelion within 300 yards and beg for it.  She's also learned the word please and how to use it in the most adorable, manipulative kind of way.
  • We keep a basketball and a football in the floor board of the car.  Polly can see them rolling back and forth which causes her to talk about daddy's balls a lot when we drive around.  I guess I'm not mature enough not to find that hysterical every time.  

Sunday, July 27, 2014

19 Months Old Yesterday

Ok, so we are a day late but it's because Polly was too busy doing this...
and this...

instead of this...
We took a quick weekend trip with a few friends.  Summer is a very busy time for me at work and we have been doing a lot of home improvement these days around the house.  We all deserved some fun even if it was brief.  Here are a few highlights from this busy month.

  • It's summer and sometimes I forget to stop and enjoy it.  A few weekends ago we bought Polly a baby pool for some backyard fun.  We put her in a swim diaper and her cute little bathing suit and we played.  I enjoyed soaking my feet in the pool and she had fun trying to empty the entire pool one tiny cup at a time.  Then I notice the water getting sort of murky but I thought, well maybe it's all of the yard debris that Ben was stirring up from clipping the limbs around us.  Then all of a sudden I remembered that babies poop and that I was probably soaking my feet in poop water.  Sure enough, I look into the back of her swim diaper and poop water comes gushing out.  So our fun summer pool time turned into, hose your naked baby down in the backyard time.  I'm still trying to figure out exactly what a swim diaper is designed to do.  
  • As you can see from above, we went boating and Polly loved it.  She did so well until she got really tired and I can already tell she is a little thrill-seeker.  She loves water and has to point it out every time she sees it which is cute when you're on a walk but a little exhausting when you're on a giant lake.  "Water! Look! Water!" Ok, it was still cute.  
  • She is still obsessed with books and she can now name her favorites including, in her words: No No Cat (Cat in the Hat), Brown Bear (pretty obvious), Pop Pop Pop (Hop on Pop), and Bunny (I Am a Bunny).  
  • When she wants me to hold her she looks at me and says, "Hold you!" and it makes me die every time.  

Thursday, June 26, 2014

18 Months

These pictures are getting harder and harder.  This little lady of ours sure has a mind of her own and she is terrible at being still.  Today she NEEDED her water and would not put it down.  Here are some thoughts from this month.  
  • Dance.  This is one of her first and last words of each day.  It's super cute but her timing is usually when we are both dead tired and her version of dancing is us holding her while we do all of the dancing and she claps and yells, "Weeeeeeeeee" and "SPIN".  
  • She talks to herself for about an hour before going to bed. Right now I can hear her saying, "Yaaaaaaaaay!"  Wait, now she's talking about her duck.
  • She MUST sleep with her bear, moose, monkey and blanket.  She's been trying to add the duck to the mix but I've managed to convince her that she sleeps on the dresser instead.  
  • She hates eggs.  She can find them in any food, spit them out and hand them to me.  It's an art.  
  • She thinks all babies are named Simon because our friends Kevin and Amy have a new baby boy named Simon.  
  • I left Polly for the first time this month for a work trip while Ben was out of town too and his mom kept her for three days.  Polly is just at that age where I don't really know what she understands but she knew something was up when I started gathering stuff at the door.  She started crying and saying, "mommy, mommy, mommy" and I started crying too.  It was the worst.  I cried my way to the airport and called a lot.  Once the initial part was over though, it was nice to have some time to myself.  It reminded me that I need to make sure to carve out more alone time when I can.  
  • I just heard her say, "thank you".  She has been in bed for an hour an fifteen minutes.  

Monday, May 26, 2014

17 Months

My baby is a kid.  Look at her.  Usually there are 20 or so takes of her monthly picture just to get her to look at the camera but today after a few struggles she scooted to the edge of her seat and smiled just before trying to eat the back of the chair.  This is definitely one of my favorites.  This last month has been one of the most challenging so far with trying to find that work, family, and self balance.  Here are a few updates:
  • I've finally dropped one of the balls that I've been juggling between work, family, side projects, and my sanity.  It was my sanity that hit the ground.  This month's list of updates has a mini list included called, THERE IS SUCH A THING AS MOM BRAIN!:  
    • Ben, Polly and I went to dinner one night after work.  We left the house, drove around trying to figure out what we wanted to eat, settled on a location and enjoyed our meal.  As I was scooting out of the booth to leave I looked down to discover that I was still wearing my house slippers.  I laughed so hard I couldn't even tell Ben what I was laughing at until we made it to the front door.  Some people wear pajamas and slippers in public all the time.  I am not one of them.  
    • Cincinnati weather can change from winter to summer in a day.  I woke up one day to a warm  90 degree day head and decided to shave my legs and bust out a dress to wear.  This is an exciting moment in the season change here for all women however while getting dressed after my morning shower I realized that I'd only shaved one leg.  Sometimes you can get away with that but not after this LONG winter. 
    • I bought my mom a mother's day card and found one for my sister.  I felt so great sending my sister a sweet card only to find out days later that I'd mailed my sister's card to my mom and my mom's card to my sister.  There's always next year.  
    • I've been driving around with an expired license since my birthday in March.  A postcard came in the mail saying that it was expired.  When I read the front side of the card my mind immediately went to, "BEN, you've been driving around on an expired license since August!!@#$@!" only to flip it over and see that it was addressed to me.  I'm all squared away but I have no idea how long it would have taken me to realize without that postcard.  
  • Polly is a daredevil.  She now likes to find the most dangerous way to do anything.  Today she tried riding her rocking horse while standing.  Our house has never seemed so terrifying to me.  It's super fun.  I've found myself wondering if/when we make our first emergency room run, do you put your screaming kid into their carseat or just hold them and hope for the best?  
  • Along with the daredevil stuff it's now clear to me that my house will never be child proof.  She can reach almost anything now.  That sweet spot at the center of the kitchen table where we keep all things she's not supposed to get to is no longer sacred.  Nothing is safe.  NOTHING!
  • Her language continues to explode.  I'm so glad that she finally can say, "help" instead of just grunting at me to do something for her.  It's coming in handy when she can't get down from something she has scaled.  You can just hear her from the other room saying, "help, help" in the cutest voice.  
  • She's obsessed with coloring.  It's the new bubbles in our house and you must color with her.  MUST!  
  • My mom and step-father have been visiting these last few days.  It makes me wonder about all of the things that I hope I get to see Polly do in her life.  I've never been so aware of the fact that we live in such a scary and wonderful world as I am now that Polly is here.  It's hard to sort through it all as a parent but I find that I just try to really enjoy her and be the best parent I can be as long as I'm allowed to.  
  • Oh, she also tells me when she poops which is sort of helpful except when we're in a quiet restaurant or store and she looks at me all concerned and all I, and everyone can hear is her say, "pooooop".